Keep your eyes on the stars and your feet on the ground.
-Theodore Roosevelt

Saturday, March 24, 2012

I listen to songs on repeat

Click [Play] I don't like change, but then again, who does? What I really mean is I really, really don't like change. I'm comfortable where I'm at and I want it to stay that way. I'm scared of my future because right now I don't have a clue at where it's headed. There's so much I can do and want to do but it's hard. Life is hard. Cliche I know. Trust me, if I had a better way to say it I would have. [Play] I have a wonderful like right now, don't get me wrong. Its just not everything I thought it would be. I thought I'd be away at college and having the time of my life doing things that every normal college kid does. I thought I'd be planning trips to Florida for spring break and staying up way to late by the aid of caffeine. [Play] I imagined life to be beyond amazing. My life is amazing but...its only amazing. It's not what I wanted. Seeing as I'm paying for college myself I took the easy way. I went to a free school for a year, hated it, hated it and hated it. I lost my scholarships and now I'm back to square one. No money and no school. I love my life and everyone in it. I have a completely wonderful family whom I couldn't survive without, great roommates with a wonderful puppy Tucker, [Play] friends that I know will pick me up when I need  it most and a handsome and perfectly sweet boyfriend. I shouldn't complain, I have no reason to. But I want to. I want to throw a big ole hissy fit and say that its not fair that I can't have everything I want. It's not fair that my parents split up when I was a kid and I cant't afford college and and it's not fair that I have to work almost full time to afford a mediocre lifestyle and I don't have a car anymore and and and it's just not fair. [Play] Life is not fair. Cliche, I'll just cover all of them. Life's a bitch. Life sucks. Life life life. I can't complain because at least I have one. I have a life and that means I can do whatever I want with it. And that means change. Something I hate. [Play] I guess I'll get over it. Click [Stop]

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